Note to self: You have a bigger God, worry not.

Work is still difficult. I am not making progress and I have a timeline that I need to strictly follow in order to keep up with the ever challenging project that I've committed into for the next 8 months. Mind you, it just keeps getting worse but it also keeps getting better at the same time. Well, there's too much to learn, too much to do. It's good for the body, it's great for the brain knowing that it still has capacity to unearth/decipher these knowledge that I am trying to/gaining right now. I still applied in another company though, not because I am weak enough to handle stress but because I am just trying to find out if there is a better option out there. I am hoping, of course, that I find one. Yet, I am also praying that I'd be damn good in what I am doing in this project. At this point, I don't really know what I want. This I tell to myself today: I have a bigger God, worry not. Just like in so many instances today and in the past, Jesus will save me. Today, I got my salary, it's higher than what I am usually receiving. I did not get a raise nor I have overtimes for the previous month. For whatever reason, it just came when I needed it most. There are countless times in the past where I did not expect that He will give me blessings, they came in the darkest hours when I walked face-down and felt like I had no one. All prayers that are left unanswered are meant to teach us valuable lessons, I guess.