Note to self: "Let it go and Let's go"

I must be overwhelmed with everything that's been going on to be able to post two blog entries in 24 hours. I am realizing now how I missed writing and I am regretting that I deleted my old blog which I started way back in college. Writing can be a therapy in a way that you organize the thoughts that are circulating inside your head for the whole day, weeks or months of over-thinking them. When I jot my thoughts down, I somehow see what's wrong and what's triggering my anxiety. The best part of blogging is the encouragement that we tell to ourselves that for the most part uplift our spirits and somehow makes us feel okay again. A pat in the back or a hug from a friend can also motivate us but there are things that only ourselves can understand The moment we tell ourselves that "you can overcome this", it somehow becomes the final say in the situation and the next thing you know you are already creating a "to-do" list in order to fulfill what you say to yourself. After my last post, everything just became clearer to me, I had a sense of purpose, I had an urge to work and learn more. For the first time in the long time, I didn't feel that my body is just dragging me to the office. I am feeling that this is a good start. =) Of course, I still have issues, there will always be issues unfortunately. This one is about a mistake that I made which led to a critical control incident. It was my last day in my old process and I was trying to fix everything before I leave for my new role and before I take a few days off from the office. When I got back, I discovered the harsh reality that I did something wrong and stupid. I reported it right away to my manager and it became a big deal. I am the kind of person who finds it hard to forgive myself when I commit mistakes. I will have sleepless night feeling sorry about the mistake that I made and I tell myself how stupid I am. I dwell on it. I spend time over analyzing about the cause of my mistake. Note to self: "Let it go and let's go. Let's go move on. I maybe judged as incompetent by that failure but what happened already happened. No one can change it. All the more that I have to work harder and prove them wrong. Tomorrow is another tough day and because of that tomorrow is another chance to get tougher.